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Entry #3672 | Time: 7-17-08 Thu 1457 |> public clearance <|
Subject: New Funny Stuff at somethingawful.com
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Asimov's 30 Laws of Robotics...

[ed: basically...]

1. Robots can't make life suck, not on purpose!

2. Robots stop making me think I piss the bed, I don't! -- Asimov

3. Robots shut up! Stop it and go to hell! Especially for Asimov!

* And roughly 30 others! Guffaw *


[and... what else is funny...]

Recollections of Gabbington (by Livestock Boreus)

[ed: basically like so...]

There's nothing quaint about someone who was too stoned and/or involved with photographing furry-dressed retards or visiting senile pretzel-pushers (claiming in all instances to be a favored relative) to write and present something truly humorous, nevertheless, herein we'll pretend so, * And More! *
The New ROM-PIT!</a> (by Nepo Tizzy)

[ed: more or less exactly like this...]

Baaaaart Simpson! Chihuahua-pigs and hornscraggle! Are you ready for game-activity FUN? Well the fun's in the making of it!

Hello! Do you wish you had this position as much as I detest that I do? Welll booooooon VOYAGE! Set sail in this game as I try to keep track of my recursive humors. In fact, practically get married to my funny-bone as I forcably bring you along to the next irritating itch of an issue, where I give closure to (or, alternately, stoke the fires of) the running jokes from the previous installations of * HERE WE GO: * ROOOOMMMMMM PIIITTTTTTS!

BOOOORRGGHHHHHH!!!!

What's worst about this game? I'm playing it!

1. It was made sometime between 1985-1992

2. * That's not all! Buy a shirt... Please *

3. I really don't think this game sucks, but... I WALKED INTO THIS


Wow aren't they a riotous crowd there at somethingawful.

Always such high quality laffs.
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Entry #3671 | Time: 7-16-08 Wed 1253 |> public clearance <|
Subject: The Flying Horses play "Too Many People" & "Bathroom Window" (Paul McCartney)
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For videos on youtube of "Too Many People", this beats the rest out, including the live McCartney DVD clip.
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Entry #3670 | Time: 7-15-08 Tue 1906 |> public clearance <|
Subject: agh.
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my head still hurts, lately.

since i got bit by those ticks, even though they didn't lodge under my skin (although, did one manage to get into my ear?) i've had to deal with slightly feverish headaches, averaging once a day.

you know, the web recommends an antibiotic treatment to get rid of the disease. you know what... i don't think so. even though the higher symptoms of the various tickborne diseases involve dementia and even death, i personally think i'd rather take that way out.

think about it like this. roughly 85% of the world surmises that some kind of god rules everything. well guess what, they also rule everything material, those 85% of the world.

and, irrevocably, they claim that suicide is not a way out. that if you commit suicide, then you're fucked as far as the eyes of god and the afterlife.

well this dementia followed by death seems to me to be a handy way out.

not only that, but most medications coming from doctors are more or less anti-god. they are heretics, relying not on faith but on strange witchery and sorcery. so there we go.

plus, as a homeless person, i simply can't get health coverage. some people mentioned some kind of free clinic, but you know what, my thoughts are so cloudy from all of this daily migraine and muscle cramps, i just can't keep track of what the fuck they are saying.

and you know, i'd better be playing these official roles such as religious type. i was recently best man at someone's wedding. that's irreversible; i've already been initiated into higher society, whoever the other players were. so now that the clay is the flesh or what have you, there's just no turning back.

so it's likely i'll just get dementia and then die sometime in the next couple of years. here we go!

what are my real complaints, today.

oh, yeah. lasagna. there is a real thing called lasagna. it had nothing to do with either macaroni or half-inch wavy noodles. a lasagna can only be made with a large, continuous noodle, or at least a series of fairly wide and long noodles. little half-inchers just don't count. the little noodles, we call that a casserole. and the macaroni, we call that a goulash. no matter how much bright, juicy marinara sauce and no matter how many layers of whitish, stringy cheese you involve, it will not be a lasagna without a lasagna noodle. capice?

fucking retards.
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Entry #3669 | Time: 7-14-08 Mon 2014 |> public clearance <|
Subject: bush interview from some time back
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the article that informed me of its existence:
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/ben-cohen/bushs-banned-interview-an_b_111804.html

once again thanks to unnamed525 for bringing to light what's important in our world where we do what's right -- but sometimes we help people.

"The interview took place almost four years ago, but is the perfect illustration of a man elected purely on name recognition, dirty money, and no discernible talent. Four years ago, there were still enough Americans who believed Bush's infantile bluster was charming and direct. Now, even Republicans do not waste their time with him, quietly wishing he would disappear and stop embarrassing their party.

The interview with Coleman should go down on record as definitive proof of Bush's utter incompetence, a priceless picture of a madman who had no business occupying the highest office of the land."
-- the article


"there had been bombings since then, not because of my response to iraq. there were bombings in madrid. there were bombings in, uh, istanbul. there were bombings in bali. there were killings in pakistan."

"do you not see that the world is a more dangerous place?"

"nobody cares about the deaths more than i do. let me finish, please. i care about it a lot. i do believe the world is becoming a safer place. i know that a free iraq is going to be necessary, part of changing the world. people join terrorist organisations because there's no hope... the idea is to provide freedom and at the same time protect our security."

"do you believe that the hand of god is guiding you in this war on terrorism?"

"i believe it is a very personal relationship. i turn to the good lord for strength, [guidance], [forgiveness]. the god i know promotes peace and freedom. that doesn't make me think i'm a better person than you are, by the way. one of the great admonisions from the book is don't try to take a speck out of your eye if i've got a log in my own... i wouldn't have made the decisions i did if i didn't think the world would be better. let me finish."

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Entry #3668 | Time: 7-8-08 Tue 1633 |> public clearance <|
Subject:
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Some writer went from talking about "what Jung called 'oceanic experience'" to "if we seek affirmation for the way we think, we'll be destined to stay lonely forever."

It was sort of odd to me that some psychologist could plac emerit in their ability to empathise about a pure thought yet discard the ability in transit.

And it seems odd that they could have an oceanic experience about cars, buildings, work, social life, guilt, fantasy pleasure, culture, and the rest of civilized life, wherein all thsoe things are suddenly, for the "oceanic" experiencer, made as small as grains of sand in a vast ocean, and conclude that the experiencer has benefitted, and just leave it at that... considering the theory left nothing, no room for something in the human experience that could be used for comparison to all the sudden billions of dwarf stars.

Something had to be there that they "awakened" (Jung) up to, but it's not acknowledged.

I know people wh obelieve there's no knowing the thoughts of other people, very mature people. To them, if you asked, what it is that comes between people in connection or understanding is behavioural, including lingual. "Just your words," they'd say perhaps, "I can't say what you're thinking."

Although coloquially that sentiment, "I don't know what you are/were thinking," is considered alienating, a common tool of distancing and alienation. Why should it also be considered an epiphany of psychological proportion? Even if you manage to make yourself behaviourist, and surround yourself with behaviourists, you'll still be destined to be alone forever, beacuse affirmation of your behaviour comes from yourself first anyway. Everyone else responds based on your expresse ddesires, don't they? They may respond with their own, but you can't tell me they don't use you the same way you've used them.

Is there or is there not, at some point, an affirmation of thought in the experience of a person? We know it cannot be arrived at by behaviour, actions or words, due to all the usual reasons: interpretation; alienated distance and aversion to sharing experience; competition, the use of or supression of compassion as a bargaining chip or a leash.

If there are so many ways not to affirm thought, can we still claim that it can happen? We would need a mechanism, and we would need as well to show that affirmation of thought occurs not only in some isolated "experience" but as an actual, interactive human exhcange. We can test the latter quite simply, especially by discarding the clinical model, which demands and operates upon isolation, control, and often blindness... we know as an intrinsically human emotional validation that to affirm thinking is both fulfilling as an exchange and is far mroe normal and commonplace than the isolation and grandiosity of "oceanic" and "experience".

The need to maintain relevance in the possible mechanism of affirmation of thought requires some method of comparison as fails in the "oceanic experience". The existence of a common human psychological attribute that either deludes everyone, or serves to remind everyone, would leave no room for the exchange of affirmation to hold any significance. Some anxious thought, perhaps triggered by the crises brought on by industrialised modern life, would not suffice if it were only always there to be acknowledged; to do so would only brin ga sense of weariness and would be relegated to an immature displacement. Granted, the weary alienation of a consistent immaturity is a common factor of the marginalisation of human necessity since industrialisation, but this does not resemble the fulfillment brought by the exchange of affirmation of thought.

Whatever the mechanism is, it is not something that is "always there" or at the very least, if there, it is not "always happening" or in other words "always put to use". This suggests not a subconcious thought but a physiological ability, perhaps specialised to the task.
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Entry #3667 | Time: 7-3-08 Thu 1237 |> public clearance <|
Subject: notes
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the paint on the wall blistered: "high gabe we'll take a college test if u get hige"

*

when you say you only got 2 matches left, othersiders ask "which two"; other othersiders respond "the other two" or "those two"

*

[re: the recent revelation that teens are, while largely illiterate, quite capable of communicating in short bursts of letters] many experts blame the internet and text-messaging. i blame "toys-r-us".

*

symbol symbol symbol, the people want to know

*

write letter about dumbfucks.
"the dumbfucks are everywhere..."
add mention of the commies.

*

middle names can bring pride that calls for sharing, sharing middle names, which disparages typical crime, which leads one to be atypical, leading one to be ostracized or outcast; no wonder being an assassin with a middle name.

*

a train coming through town has to honk at each intersection. in a town with a lot of intersections, a big town, that's a lot of honking, probably all within earshot of townspeople and across almost the whole town. a person who hears trains and dislikes it probably hasn't considered proper cause. the majority, not knowing why trains honk, probably dislike horns. your average person upset at train horns probably upsets your average person who takes it in stride.
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Entry #3666 | Time: 7-1-08 Tue 1543 |> public clearance <|
Subject: Emotional Immaturity in Populations
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What do you do when your boss or other leader is extremely immature? Aren't the figures that are your authorities or your leaders supposed to show some measure of maturity at what you feel is an acceptable level, or even more maturity than that? What if they consistently seem to be thinking at a much lower intelligence level than you find acceptable, and a much lower social grace level than you find acceptable, and seemingly because they find something immaturely funny or charismatic about that? What if that's not just your boss or leader, what it that's also the description of all of your coworkers? Is it valid to point out large segments of the population that have become accustomed to similar behaviours and mentalities that fall short of acceptable levels? Typically, in those environments, it is not acceptable at all. What are you supposed to do?
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Entry #3665 | Time: 6-27-08 Fri 1117 |> public clearance <|
Subject: song begging for a cover
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1.3mb download mp3

Love is a stranger
In an open car
To tempt you in
And drive you far away

And I want you
And I want you
And I want you so
Its an obsession

Love is a danger
Of a different kind
To take you away
And leave you far behind
And love love love
Is a dangerous drug
You have to receive it
And you still cant
Get enough of the stuff

Its savage and its cruel
And it shines like destruction
Comes in like the flood
And it seems like religion
Its noble and its brutal
It distorts and deranges
And it wrenches you up
And youre left like a zombie

And I want you
And I want you
And I want you so
Its an obsession

Its guilt edged
Glamorous and sleek by design
You know its jealous by nature
False and unkind
Its hard and restrained
And its totally cool
It touches and it teases
As you stumble in the debris

And I want you
And I want you
And I want you so
Its an obsession

( Eurythmics - "Love is a Stranger" )
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Entry #3664 | Time: 6-26-08 Thu 2019 |> public clearance <|
Subject: this is very interesting music
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mystere des voix bulgares "polegnala e todora"</i>

i didn't know you could find a video

i found out the other day that internet can be very expensive for some people and that videos are a lot larger in file size than they appear to be. and a lot of people probably don't want to spend money on streaming the videos i put in my journal entries, or to hear the song that i try to send everyone who visits my journal page (it's over a mb). or to look at humongous high-quality pictures of things like the visible universe or the world's largest machine. all of that stuff is megabytes, and i found out that some people get metered by the megabyte like it's the 1990s. some people are paying half a dollar for a megabyte. can you imagine? five hundred dollars for a gigabyte of you-name-it? imagine going to the software store and saying "hey, i'll give you five hundred dollars for one gigabyte (two cd's) with just whatever on them."

there's no real gaurantees to internet content. it can be humongous piles of crap, like myspace. every page on myspace takes forever to load from lagging servers because the files are so large. you think it's this little journal page, but kabam, there's two more megabytes. that's a dollar to some people! and my journal page has been formatted to keep it compatible with old, text-mode browsers like lynx. it shouldn't have mp3s and shit floating around in it. that mp3 costs some people almost a whole dollar! and my journal main page shows the most entries that livejournal settings will allow at once, like 150 entries on one page. i'm sure that's a lot! who the hell wants to load all that? and it's expensive! all this internet shit's so damn expensive as it's metered by some companies! i mean i really couldn't believe that some people are paying fifty cents a megabyte. that's arcane. that's ... just amazingly strange and weird. and modern telecommunications companies are charging that much. what the hell.
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Entry #3663 | Time: 6-24-08 Tue 0134 |> public clearance <|
Subject: video, deo, deos
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nick cave - into my arms


mazzy star - fade into you


wilco - california stars


10,000 maniacs - painted desert


indigo girls - kid fears


r.e.m. - wolves, lower


dire straits - sultans of swing


paul simon - boy in the bubble


aphrodite's child - babylon the great


aphrodite's child - the four horsemen
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Entry #3662 | Time: 6-23-08 Mon 0400 |> public clearance <|
Subject: videos, videos, videos
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king & queen of america


all my children -- mike patton bit

mike patton / tomahawk -- god hates a coward


portishead -- wandering stars


digable planets -- blackitolism


beastie boys -- root down (free zone)


nick cave & the bad seeds -- brompton oratory


roxette -- do you get excited?

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Entry #3661 | Time: 6-21-08 Sat 1154 |> public clearance <|
Subject: "we'll weigh it as pure hydro"
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Start of #philosophy buffer: Sat Jun 21 11:50:56 2008
* Now talking in #philosophy
* Topic is 'crackin like pistachios '
* Set by charlatan!indica@c-76-113-170-17.hsd1.mn.comcast.net on Sat Jun 21 04:24:11
* Mises sets mode: +v eyenot
[ eyenot ] oh durtro's here.
[ eyenot ] i'd like to talk about hydrogen today
[ TiggerToo ] hydrogen as fuel?
[ rsTheo ] hydrogen? http://i217.photobucket.com/albums/cc290/dha_017/garf.jpg
[ eyenot ] it turns out i'm not an idiot after all for suggesting that the hydrogen economy is a ripoff
[ bossofme ] perhaps you are an idiot in the larger sense
* Vikash (here@adsl-76-252-68-150.dsl.lgtpmi.sbcglobal.net) has joined #philosophy
* Mises sets mode: +v Vikash
[ eyenot ] and that, oh, my totally idiotic comment the other day that it is a better idea to just cart around water as fuel and use electrolysis on-the-go isn't idiotic.
[ Vikash ] hey whaddup geniuses
[ rsTheo ] hi vikki vale.
[ eyenot ] but wait, oh, as durtro said just that time ago...
[ eyenot ] "oh you idiot gnarf gnarf gnash gnash... you idiot, that's why you stay plugged in on the grid, it takes too much elec"
[ Vikash ] hey rsTheolina
[ Vikash ] whats happenin UK MAN
[ TiggerToo ] this Durtro fellow seems to have gotten under your skin, eyenot
[ eyenot ] well as it turns out it doesn't. there are already designs running
[ eyenot ] shut the fuck up tigger
[ Vikash ] hey does anyone here NOT like me
[ eyenot ] i've said what i need to say.
[ rsTheo ] lying down, listening to Jon Benjamin
[ Vikash ] thats what i thought
[ Vikash ] JON BENJAMIN!! AWESOME
[ apestate ] vikash, I don't like you
[ akhenaton ] re re eyenot
[ apestate ] ya fag
[ akhenaton ] durtro is here and yet not here
[ Vikash ] do you count?
[ Vikash ] .seen snowdog
* monarchos (~nonrabbit@c-98-193-114-178.hsd1.il.comcast.net) has joined #philosophy
* Mises sets mode: +v monarchos
[ akhenaton ] so don't sweat it
[ rsTheo ] listening to Jon Benjamin sabotaging Matt Walsh's comedy bit live on radio
[ eyenot ] because as you should all be informed, the fission of the hydrogen and oxygen creates an electrostatic charge.
[ eyenot ] and you can actually draw an enormous charge from it.
[ TiggerToo ] eyenot: are you a scientist?
[ eyenot ] even while you're using it for heat.
[ eyenot ] dumbass durtro.
[ eyenot ] there's a hydrogen battery on tv as we speak.
[ Vikash ] hey apestate can you build a pc
[ eyenot ] i wish he was here to have his head colloquially shoved up his ass.
[ akhenaton ] eyenot: you refering to the japanese water car?
[ eyenot ] akhenaton: i was a few weeks back, but i was referring to making your own at home actually.
[ akhenaton ] it could work if you have a lot of water
[ apestate ] yeah sure vikash
[ akhenaton ] seaside powerplants or something
[ akhenaton ] but freshwater is too valuable to waste on powering your playstation
[ eyenot ] my friend has everything right now to make a hydrogen conversion on his car
[ eyenot ] you don't need a lot of water to generate power from fission.
[ ruination ] pinkos'
[ eyenot ] you do it on a molecular level. these battteries are the size of a dog.
[ eyenot ] and they run a car
[ eyenot ] however that's not what i'm talking about, because they still require storage of a quantity of pure hydrogen.
[ akhenaton ] eye: not in the singular, but if a million cars did it, you sure would
[ akhenaton ] or houses
[ eyenot ] i was talking about just filling a car up with water and keeping the fission/fusion a closed system
[ akhenaton ] if you created a water hydrogen power grid you'd need a lot of water
[ apestate ] do you ever wonder if you do research so that you have just enough information to talk big about stuff
[ akhenaton ] you'd eventually need to refill right? would it work with saltwater of which there is a lot?
[ eyenot ] no, i do just enough research to help my hobbies evidently
[ eyenot ] akhenaton probably.
[ eyenot ] in all likelihood there would be some loss
[ akhenaton ] freshwater may become an issue in the next 50 years
[ TiggerToo ] you're saying you can put water in a gasoline powered combustion engine and make it work just fine
[ eyenot ] but there are several systems out right now that use hydrogen in various ways, and i'm working with someone on combining them towards minimizing how often you need to do that
[ akhenaton ] they should get a jumpstart on desalinization plants
[ eyenot ] we're looking at a potential ******
[ TiggerToo ] why would anyone argue against that?
[ eyenot ] relying on other ******s, but we can still ****** reuse
[ akhenaton ] tigger: i don't believe that is what he's saying
[ eyenot ] tiggertoo: you're oversimplifying.
[ apestate ] all you really need to do is buy a hybrid car and drive with the brakes on
[ eyenot ] tiggertoo: you must have just fallen off a boat somewhere.
[ eyenot ] tiggertoo: because i don't have any idea who you are and i've never seen you around, and you don't seem to pay attention before you comment
[ akhenaton ] eye: the japanese water car uses that electrolysis thing to generate hydrogen and electicity or something, they think they could have it on the market in 5 years
[ eyenot ] akhenaton: i saw an ad for it and told my friend we had to change our design
[ akhenaton ] of course the french also have a compressed air car that gets 100 mpg
[ TiggerToo ] I'm still in a boat
[ akhenaton ] the gas powers the air compression moter
[ eyenot ] akhenaton: he was working on a hydrogen-cell car and i said 'we have to upgrade, honda has a car that just fills up on water'
[ eyenot ] akhenaton: we're phasing out gasoline in this model. there are two other inventions to add onto the closed loop
[ akhenaton ] hydrogen cell is so 1980s
[ eyenot ] it is, any hybridisation isn't what we're working for
[ akhenaton ] it's cheap-end tech
[ akhenaton ] they should bite the bullet and retool. if this were civilization they'd have done it already
[ eyenot ] there have been a lot of reports on the overall energy expenditure of these hybrid plans used en masse
[ akhenaton ] and we'd be at war with abraham lincoln and his army of native americans
[ eyenot ] as you were saying, if you multiply the loss by several million users, it has an impact
[ eyenot ] you have a good perspective
[ eyenot ] i had to keep pressing him to close the loop, though. he wants to start building now and have a high water emission. he says water's too abundant to worry about filling up
[ eyenot ] they're his metals, though
[ akhenaton ] fresh water is abundant *now*. this some engineer buddy of yours or an amateur inventor?
[ eyenot ] luckily the cost of some of these metals is starting to plummet. i'm thinking china's trying to manipulate the market to shake off all the commodities players so they can make a bigger grab
[ eyenot ] so this isn't a bad time to buy in if you're really going to use the metal
[ eyenot ] akhenaton: he's figuring we have a window of opportunity, where you can fill up haphazardly now and not worry, before the tech has a major impact
[ eyenot ] akhenaton: but his ethics are at the base of the invention, so i keep pressing him to look ahead
[ eyenot ] akhenaton: he
[ eyenot ] akhenaton: he's sitting over here. he says right now, we have flooding problems and melting ice caps, nothing to worry about. i still say it's a potential loss.
[ akhenaton ] hehe every engineer needs a futurist for perspective
[ akhenaton ] less the scientific nightmares that way
[ bossofme ] elizabeth taylor hates aids
[ akhenaton ] the weight loss candy?
[ howto ] Chicks can't resist me.
[ akhenaton ] if you're holdin a pistol
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[ ruination ] howto, it aint bout the meat no mo. is bout the sauce
[ ejl ] a dead man's bot
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[ eyenot ] there's the possibility that new potential discoveries, acquisitions of prospective lands, have driven down futures thus forcing many of the commodities players to sell out, thus driving down the cost. but really, it sure makes a great cover for anyone who owns enough of the metal to sell large quantities, drive down the value, and cause the hangers-on to sell in suit
[ eyenot ] that allows you to buy back in your metals for less than they were worth, basically getting your metals back with some cash on the side, good for any large-scale industry
[ eyenot ] and china has enough of the metals to cause a big slump like that.
[ eyenot ] the only barrier, really, to getting off the grid, and getting away from things like bottles of hydrogen or tanks of solid hydrogen alloys, is to have the right metals so you can produce it on your own. and it can be produced on-the-go if you use it all efficiently enough.
[ monarchos ] hahaha
[ ejl ] which ten?
[ bossofme ] there are only three major types of retardation and Durtro has all three
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[ eyenot ] there are some potential discoveries in the news just prior to the price drop, but i doubt the small change in futures caused by one small prospect has affected the metals to this extent. i really should have checked volumes
[ bossofme ] how's prostitution toofy
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Entry #3660 | Time: 6-21-08 Sat 0058 |> public clearance <|
Subject: What's 30?
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So now I'm 30. I've spent a day being 30 years old.

Some time back I said I'd change everything about myself, all at once, if life didn't change for me. I was figuring, adaptability. I guess I turn out to be not so adaptable. I mean, sure, I can get through a lot, I can survive a lot that, so I'm told, a lot of other people can't or don't.

I think we all have to survive a lot. It's part of being human. But I really, lately, I just really hate being human. You know, it seems like I can't even meet a good looking woman without thinking of how I can get to have sex with her. I don't mind that. It's just that the era of free love is over, a one-time opportunity that was mis-spent on idiots. So I don't hate being in this time as opposed to some "earlier, freer time". I just hate being human.

It's my opinion that God makes me horny. It's also my opinion that God's upset that it's not getting anywhere. You know, I'm *this* tempted to opening a present, just for kicks, but I think somewhere I know it still wouldn't make for the kind of world I need. I can give, and I can take away. I've been taking away for so long, though, sometimes I wonder if what frustrates me the most about the world isn't much my own doing. I suppose it's easy for some people to disentangle themselves (I know that's an incorrect word formation, but you try and find another one -- "theirselves" is supposed to be "their selves" is actually supposed to be "his or her self") but I can't seem to do that. There's always this, sort of thing "in my face", showing me that I'm not afforded that luxury. It's not all purely drawbacks. It makes realistic globalism an easy worldview, shows up your typical conservatives and liberals as idiots. Well, in the extra sense that anyone who's worldview is mostly talk is an idiot. Another luxury I can't afford.

I don't hate these things, these gifts, they all have their pros and cons, but it gives one something to ponder when they consider whether presents should be given and received or not, opened or left closed, and so on. Think of all the amazing lives you could lead, "if" this, or "if" that. Also, think of how dull things are when they're always amazing. Take that scrutiny, that sense that you don't always know ahead of time what you're getting yourself into, and how what seems like a great thing to open turns out to be actually be a lot of trouble. Consider Pandora, but then carry the fruit of those considerations over to Prometheus. Indulge in the luxury.

What is 30 years, anyway? One thing I can't stand, that I never could stand, was the way people will put more value on something than it really possesses, purely out of vanity. Ego is one thing, not purely vanity. People prize vases and paintings, relics and old tee shirts because of sentimental value, prize value, premium trade value, egotistical value. There's nothing necessarily vain about how ego boosts the things that boost the ego, it's an intercausal relationship, every egotism has a fetish waiting to be discovered. But the painting that goes on the wall of the house, its position as a beautifier and a scarcifier is out of vanity. Ego drives up the price, but vanity gives it a pedestal. Ego gives sentiment a physical placeholder. Vanity puts it on and parades it around. Ego can only placate the inner desire in a physical thing, but vanity can make value in something completely valueless, make something worth noting out of something absolutely unnoteworthy. Age, for instance. Ego knows not to value age, but to abhor the mention. Vanity, however, revels in age. Vanity knows that age is a double-sided golden coin; at once you have youth and then maturity, beauty either fresh or wise but still beautiful. Vanity is what makes people say this hateful phrase: "ahhhh the big three-oh! Over the hill, eh?" Yes, a phrase both tasteless and ignorant (forty, fifty, and sixty have all been called "over the hill") but yet boastful: "here is something to make note of, hey, hey, hey-a HEEYYYY ..."

And yet who doesn't enjoy doing this? "Oh, you're this age or that age? Hmm-hmm! My aren't we both caught up together in a web of vanity. We're both quite self-important, yes you notice that I noticed you're as caught up as I am."

I don't. Why can't two people meet in the clear? Why does there always have to be some conventionalised, cloudy issuance to come forth from them, to come between them and to do the meeting for them? Even two star-crossed lovers, though immortalised by prose, have barely seen each other through opacity of pose. Chuh-- "star-crossed"... chumps.

I like people who are commonplace in their love. Plain, ordinary. Two people who met and really liked each other. A lot. Perhaps called it love, perhaps got married. Perhaps decided to be together forever. I hate romantics, hopeless romantics. Vain romantics. People who are completely alone, who will be alone their entire lives, even when they do meet someone and "settle down", they can be romantics. To make a point, most of the politically liberal world is composed of romantics -- and so are the self-proclaimed "conservatives". So are most modern people. They try in vain, by vain, to make up for something they feel they're missing. But they're missing it because they went down the vain and romantic road in the first place, to join the others, who are "winning". And by taking roads such as that, by not staying firmly within yourself, being content with who you are as a foundation to build upon, you take a chance. Those roads are fissures, and while the bulk of the many may be held in the great chasm beneath, quite a few find themselves in their own "niche", dying of their loneliness as they revel in the cause of it.

It's not so hard to see clearly through all things, great and mighty, small and frail, ancient and sparkling new, if you just stay who you are. But that's no present from me, that's what should be common sense. Now that, that's not my fault that more people don't know that. That so many are so stupid, perhaps. Because I've always felt, every time someone tells me how intelligent I am and how my intelligence should be used to further my ambitions (had I any), that I should conserve myself and not do the work, for I have obviously earned something already, and rather the rest of the world should simply be made somehow, perhaps magically, just a little bit more stupid, so the same thing is accomplished in the end. And ever since the first time I wanted that, I knew right away it was coming true just then, and that it always would as long as I wanted it to. But also that I would have to suffer through it, through a world of idiots. And as I got older I realised I could see for myself when and how I'm intelligent and figured out that I didn't need someone to tell me for it to be true. I can acknowledge myself. But I never lost the knack for just saying, "ahh (sigh), then that means I've already accomplished something, according to how the world works and what the world thinks, and I'm awfully tired right now so, just, make it so". And here I am, and I still enjoy the thought of being the smart one in a room, or a town, or a country, or a world full of idiots, who'll have to rely on me for knowledge.

So many offerings made of money as of late, just as I'm realising, who needs money? Hey, who needs money? Hey, print some more, more free money for everyone! Press thirty pieces of thirty into thirty thousand palms! Ha, ha hahaha... goodbye, little fishies!
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Entry #3659 | Time: 6-20-08 Fri 1713 |> public clearance <|
Subject: long irc chat
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Start of #philosophy buffer: Fri Jun 20 13:31:40 2008
* Now talking in #philosophy
* Topic is 'Greatest YoutTube Video Ever: http://www.youtube.com
/watch?v=oOJVXheNrqs'
* Set by heyzeus!heyzeus@199.243.221.206 on Fri Jun 20 11:51:29
* Mises sets mode: +v eyenot
[ hayzeus ] sat: Yer too old.
[ sat__ ] hayzeus: you are too easily taken in.
[ hayzeus ] Right.
[ xiw ] I'm a twelve year old Norwegian and I don't think that kind of music is anything worth wasting time on.
[ sat__ ] xiw: hayzeus will say you are too young.
[ eyenot ] what is this youtube advertisement about? what is in the video?
[ eyenot ] is it the dogs dragging their butts video?
[ sat__ ] crapola
[ eyenot ] with the snoop dog song?
[ hayzeus ] No.
[ hayzeus ] It's Six Feet Under covering AC/DC.
[ xiw ] [eyenot ] there are other videos on Youtube?!
( long irc chat )
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Entry #3657 | Time: 6-19-08 Thu 1704 |> public clearance <|
Subject: bad day
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my day's been eaten up by savages and idiots. i've been able to accomplish nothing that i set out to do today besides basically writing this entry.
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Entry #3656 | Time: 6-17-08 Tue 2025 |> public clearance <|
Subject: More Great Humor from Somethingawful.com
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[excerpts from] The David Thorpe Dating Theory

"...But home base, as any sports fan knows, isn't just where it ends. It's also where it starts. In this installment of The Dave Thorpe Dating Theory, we'll take a look at the full system of bases, an age-old educational tool that will prepare you for each step of your relationship.

...4th base:

Rolling over in bed to answer your cell phone and accidentally elbowing her in the face hard enough to constitute domestic violence, but it doesn't wake her up and you're propped up half-asleep thinking, "my god, I've killed her."

...6th through 14th bases:

Being subjected to an entire Tori Amos CD in the car. One base awarded for each hour it seems to last.

...19th base:

One time I was in Safeway and this really square middle-aged couple were standing there surveying all the nuts in the nut aisle, and the lady was like, "how am I supposed to choose between all these nuts?" and the dude says, in a completely normal and casual tone of voice, "I've got some nuts for you." He didn't even say it quietly. This actually happened, and that shit is 20th base. If you see that guy (you'll know it's him), high-five him for me.

...28th base:

You accidentally enjoy a romantic comedy. You try to justify it because she accidentally enjoyed Die Hard, but deep in your heart you know you've turned an awful corner in your life.

...35th base:

She gives you a look when you walk past the maternity clothes store in the mall, and you're like, "I swear to god, lady, I am going to punch your lights out."

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Entry #3655 | Time: 6-13-08 Fri 1519 |> public clearance <|
Subject: We Get What We're Eating
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I feel a little better today. What I thought might have been the onset of Rocky Mountain Fever brought on by several nights waking up to the loose dangling of a black dog tick, the rash has stopped spreading and the migranes have receeded. Also, the Cosby show was on and that made me remember that not everybody's a total piece of shit.

I'm watching a show on Isaac Newton and they just mentioned his discoveries on light. Light is one of my favorite scientific subjects. Even though I don't know much about it in conventional terms, I know enough about the fundamentals that I typically find I know more than the next person.

Which brings me back to the contemporary modern racism.

People at Newton's time found it completely unbelievable that white light was composed of all the various colors we know as the rainbow. Or, basically, that any light is composed of a spectrum, and that to a certain extent the frequencies of the spectra can be divided into seperately remarkable components. Now the show's more focused on Newton's alchemy which he was busy with just after promising an essay on light for the Royal Society.

I am reminded how often since a very young age I've been in arguments with people, very, very heated arguments full of insults and resulting in strained relations, entirely over the subject matter of such things as primary colors and the composition of light.

Most people, even in this seemingly enlightened age, are taught that the primary colors are Red, Blue, and Yellow.

Red+Blue = Purple
Red+Yellow = Orange
Yellow+Blue = Green

Red, Orange, Yellow, Green, Blue, Purple. That's sufficient for most people to see a rainbow of colors and be convinced that the science of art is complete, as this little course in color is typical of art-class education, whether public or private, all across America.

In truth, though, the pigmentation-mixing that's occuring there is what's considered subtractive coloration. The actual spectra reflecting off each pigment are actually the product of what spectra the pigment is absorbing. When you mix absorbtive pigments, they combine their spectral absorbtions. The resulting pigment absorbs a combination of its parent pigments and reflects the remainder.

But to understand how what is reflected comes together to make certain lights, you need to understand the mixing that is fundamental to subtractive, and that is additive. Additive mixing is based on the spectrum of light itself, not based on pigmentation.

In actual light, there are no real primary colors. Instead there is a spectrum which may be divided arbitrarily into any set of frequencies. Our eye so happens to divide them more or less evenly (though giving some preference) along three bands of frequency which we have come to call "red", "green", and "blue". The inverse is another arbitrary division of the spectrum, into "magenta", "yellow", and "cyan" (this secondary color scheme is useful for relating to subtractive mixing, and it also happens to be the color scheme of your average photographic negative. Take a look.)

If you make a disc with the spectrum on it, and create another solid, blank disc with cutouts in it that represent the arc-degrees taken up by the three colors red, green, and blue, and then you twist that cutout disc one-sixth of a turn, the cutouts should now reveal the three colors that come 'halfway' between each of the primaries. Between red and green we find yellow, between green and blue we find cyan, and between blue and red we find magenta.

When you shine a red light on a whiteboard, and then shine a blue light on the board next to it, so that some portion of the lights overlap, you'll find a magenta light at their Venn union. If you shine together red and green, you'll find yellow. Green and blue, you'll find cyan.

We can say that the red pigment is absorbing 1 blue and 1 green portion and reflecting 1 red. And we can say that the blue pigment is absorbing 1 red and 1 green portion and reflecting 1 blue. Their light reflections, if they intersect, excite our blue and red optical sensors simultaneously and we see purple. When we mix them up, we get something that now absorbs 1 blue, 1 red, and 2 green. So, though it does absorb some of both red and blue (which together make purple), it reflects twice as much green as either of those colors, and so what we see is interpreted as relatively purple (though fairly darker than a pure magenta).

To this day the average person insists that all of this is hogwash, that red yellow and blue are the primary colors, and that the secondary colors are orange, green, and purple.

The worst part of it is when somebody who has absolutely no understanding of color has learned some rudimentary web markup creation or computer graphics programming. They now know that the scientifically accepted primary colors are red, green, and blue, but they don't know that that's a convention in use for any situation. They think it's unique to computing, and for all we know they believe it has something to do with the production cost of light-emitting diodes or the chemicals inside of cathode rays and blackrooms.

Even worse than that is the person who is sitting with you, drinking, who says "white and black people shouldn't fight, because white is the combination of all colors, and so is black".

Psuedoscientists should be hung.
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Entry #3654 | Time: 6-13-08 Fri 0038 |> public clearance <|
Subject: macdonald's
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apparently macdonald's fast food restaurant's television commercial advertising has been written and directed by a racist, chauvenist, classist, manipulative, exploitative and moronic black man for the last five years.

i mean that's just what it looks like when i'm watching tv and i see that shit. it makes me want to find who made that shit and beat the hell out of them.

i think the one i just saw was the worst of the possible worst because it was targeted for the audience of the bernie mac show. the bernie mac show is such a sucker job, a real dumb-down of the audience. it's worse than the simpsons, and at least the simpsons could get laughs from making fun of itself. that takes moderation, though, and a little humility. bernie mac, and his show, have nothing to do with moderation or humility. and the show is like the most glittery and lasting remnant of blaxploitation standing. oh, look they just one-upped: now there's a real noirish italian-exploitation scene happening. entirely without self-parody, that's what annoys me; the viewers aren't watching this to make fun of mentalities and moronicies of the past -- they watch this show, serially, because they're thinking like this all the time.

well. that's the modern urban-american replacement for the cosmopolitan.

oh, yeah, most people these days only know that word as a mixed drink.

...

do you realize how popular bernie mac and his show are? and how popular macdonald's is and still yet how effective this streak of demeaning commercials will increase their profit?

gotta love a fucking merica.





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Entry #3653 | Time: 6-11-08 Wed 0346 |> public clearance <|
Subject: What is the "God" of monotheistic religion?
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"God" as all these modern religions portray it is a very simple thing to reduce and understand.

It's easiest to use the good guy / bad guy story because it helps accentuate just how clearly "God" can be understood by a person who has proper insight.

And, for the sake of context to give these yin / yang symbols some meaning, we'll use sex.

Say there's two powers, a good one and an evil one. The good one wants nature to take its course, wants life to be lived freely, wants free will to be properly observed and celebrated, wants guilt to be removed from actions, and wants consciences to be clear. The good one wants sex to be fun and easy, an act of reproduction and of pleasure, an act of fulfillment of desire and purpose. The good one gets off because that's what happens when you have sex. It's built into the entire function, naturally and normally.

The evil one can't get off unless there's a guilt mechanism involved. The evil one can't blow his rocks unless it's into the ovulating womb of some forbidden pussy. A married woman, a chaste nun, a knocked-out pin-up, a girl in moral, psychological, or physical bondage, some way of ensuring that fucking her is bad and wrong. The evil one can't be satisfied unless she's clenching her cunt muscles around an invader, a violator, an adulterer, a savage beast, a rapist, any cock as long as it's not supposed to be inside of her and doing what it's doing. Sex isn't any good to the evil one until there's a moment of remorseful, guilty pleasure.

Now imagine that these two powers don't really have physical bodies and can't really have sex. So they have to watch humans have sex, and they have to masturbate. They get off as long as they're watching what they like.

So the evil one makes as many rules as possible for people to feel guilty over, and then, just in case it missed anybody, it also says that the good one's the evil one, just to make sure that people are feeling guilty if they've ever heard of either of them and believe in any of it either way.

So obviously the evil one's "God" and the good one's "Satan". That's why the religious people of the world are quacks, sickos, perverts, and so on. Granted, under the power structures they are currently ruling us with and have been ruling us all with, this entire planet, for millenia, we all have alot of pent up sexual frustration that could do with some rulebreaking, at least once to get it out. Some people might have to break lots of taboos or rules before they clear up their psyche.

As a note, the psychoanalytical process comes to us by way of Freud who observed that in his town of Vienna there was something amiss, where all these really nice people out front in their daily public social lives were actually running off at night to join orgies in the Vienna Woods, but they couldn't bear to have that a matter of public social discourse, even though it was more or less apparent to lots of Viennaese what was going on. Freud had to wonder why this was happening and came up with psychoanalysis. Fun, isn't it?

In any case, there's nothing wrong with wanting and doing those sorts of things, whether it's a fantasy, or a role play with a lover, or the real thing. Excepting rape, which shouldn't be done for real because it constitutes a violent physical assault and is the product of the rapist's inability to detach their mind from the psychotic social stigmas concerning, and often equating, essential sexuality and essential violence. In other words, their inability to be able to understand that the things I'm saying in this entry are correct.

So the difference between a person who is suffering from guilt complexes in their sexuality and wants to act out sexual fantasies that involve crossing the boundaries that cause them to feel guilt, and the religious pervert, is that the first person is going through a cathartic process that, in the absence of the guilt mechanism would probably not need to occur, whereas the second person is just a sick and demented mind who is ignorant of their plight while simultaneously opportunistic upon the plight of others they can manage to entrap into similar straights.
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Entry #3651 | Time: 6-10-08 Tue 0012 |> public clearance <|
Subject:
(Start of entry #3651:)
It would be a 'nice' thing to say that the masses of people are simply well-intentioned. You know, we are supposed to be sooo beyond stereotyping and prejudice in these amazing new years in the 21st century. But look, the masses have their priorities all fucked up. Yes, we should have worked out racial tension long ago, by now, but it's stronger than it ever was. You know how sexual tension is created out of repressed sexual urges, when you want to do some fucking but you hold yourself back because societal function demands it. Think about, then, what must be causing racial tension. And yet we're not over racial tension, though we keep saying we should be. Obviously the masses understand when they've done something wrong, but so does any dumb, struck behemoth. In the last two centuries racial tension has been one of the only two societal crises that has been given any serious attention by the masses, amidst several. Those two crises are racial and sexual inequality, tied for first. Coming in a close second has been religion itself, whether as religious intolerance, religious persecution, religious war, or religious tyranny, it's one unified issue. But the second place brings no prize, the divide is vast; measures have been taken to remove racial and sexual inequalities in most of the first world, and those measures have more or less stayed in place. Some writing of philosophical quality has been made regarding religion but it's hard to say whether anything has really been done about it. Just look at the popular christians; they don't know whether to support Moses' ten commandments or to condemn them in the name of Jesus. They set up temple for the new testament and sell the old out of it, and the money changers are taking it to the bank. Popular televangelists will drive their sports cars or wear their expensive suits right up onto the stage in lieu of some religious epiphany to be shared with the masses. Lesser known preachers will stand up before a crowd of destitutes waiting for a meal and tell them that they're all vicious, good-for-nothing addicts and that they're poor and homeless because they're all sinners. Not because the job market is shit, not because the economy is tanked, not because the rest of the crises that come in third through last are almost completely ignored. No, it's because God said so. You're forgiven, but you're fucked up and wrong. And from these three crises, all of which are dealt with by society through the carefully detailed and inherited legacies of obvious prejudice, society is somehow supposed to have learned something by which to be self-informed as to how to proceed with the remainder. So really, it's no wonder, but as I said, it's ignorant. And it would only further the cause of such prejudice, as I said, to merely, nicely state that society is 'well-intended'. The ignoramus is one of the most stereotyped distinctions among humanity, and yet it's in the majority. One of these stereotypes is of the well-intending ignoramus. The gentle, but stupid, giant. The dumbass who finishes last because he's just being a nice guy. And so on. And any one from the masses would be the first to speak up in their own direct defense, requesting that indeed they be seen as well-intended as opposed to ignorant. But that's because their priorities are fucked up; though both of the images are equally dismal, they would prefer to be seen in the least honest of available images simply because it sufficiently muddies the issue, for them, of right and wrong. They'd prefer to find complicity in that dysperception, because that signifies the beginning of the triumph of ignorance. And this works exceptionally well for them because otherwise there are real crises to face and real problems to solve, and a not by any means praiseworthy track record to such ends for many generations now. The burden of that failure would have to fall on those who share complicity in furtherance of the problem, a subset of all those who at least acknowledge the problem at first so that it can be dealt with directly for better or for worse. The opposite set, all those who ignore the problem and live a life of fictionalisation, of image, of indirect reference, cannot make or break their own life and are really no good for any one else's. And yet there we find the masses, the vast majority of all people. Do not be prejudiced, there are in fact equal proportions of the destitute, the opulent, and all those between who live internally immersed in fantasy. The idea of the noble peasant is quaint and often promoted as some kind of robotic certaity but rarely is it found in the flesh, just as rarely as you'll find a noble noble or any noble fellow. Again, fantasies exactly such as that of the proud and strong poorman are what allow the masses to ignore their failings to solve problems. There is even the popular facade of the sensitive, self-effacing, post-modern-traditionalist, the prevailing cultural archetype in the United States. It is quite trendy in the States to go around stating to others how you have failings in this and that, and to be very outgoing and sensitive about the internal, allegedly emotionally contentious issues that are apparently shared by everyone, or at least everyone who participates in the cultural archetype. In truth, the weaknesses revealed aren't real, they're manufactured, whether out of social anxiety or straight delusion. And the sympathies expressed aren't any more genuine, whether because they are expressed for false emotions or because they are expressed out of opportunism or mere boredom. And this sort of script and play is what passes for sanity in the entire modern world, and even much of it that is modernising.

Thanks to [info]unnamed525 for transmitting to me this next meme-virus.

You are in a mall when the zombies attack. You have:

1. one weapon.
2. one song blasting on the speakers.
3. one famous person to fight alongside you.

1. the eye of horus
2. Eurythmics, "Paint a Rumour"
3. george washington
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Entry #3650 | Time: 6-8-08 Sun 2253 |> public clearance <|
Subject: blah blah blah
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dreams
nepal http://eyenot.livejournal.com/890198.html
others http://eyenot.livejournal.com/845374.html
another entry for homelessness http://eyenot.livejournal.com/858618.html
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those are urls for later additions to my style (favorite entries).

i watched this interesting movie recently, "memento". i think it's one of the few movies that is made all the more interesting by smoking some marijuana about ten or fifteen minutes into it. because the movie is about short term memory loss and furthermore because the movie simulates short term memory loss for the viewer, i didn't feel necessarily crippled by the weed. instead, it helped me 'get into it'. weed is usually pretty crippling for me, especially because i go almost full-tilt empathic, and in our social climate that's no good. there's no use for somebody who can go that far empathically if nobody they want to screw is going to fuck them once in awhile. see, empaths aren't that much different than most other people. they just feel it more, understando? no?
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Entry #3649 | Time: 6-4-08 Wed 1023 |> public clearance <|
Subject: This Is It - The Best of Faith No More
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I just started listening to this album today, it's more or less equal to my own selection of favorite Faith No More hits.

I never really understood the history of FNM, I guess. Recently seeing videos of early FNM ("We Care a Lot") I thought that was perhaps Patton, from the earliest days, maybe living a California lifestyle to account for his deep tan. No, that was Chuck Moseley. I have no idea who that is but he had a quirky voice.

Anyways, Patton came along as Moseley's replacement from the band Mr. Bungle. So in all actuality, Patton's progress from punker to rock star to weirdo as I portrayed it never really occured -- Patton started out as a wierdo, did this famous gig with a rock band and brought them to superstardom, and then went back to focusing mostly on the wierdness.

But that's what happens when people who don't know things right go around telling other people what's right. Such as people going around saying that the Mr. Bungle band was/is a "Mike Patton side-project". It's not his side-project, if you consider that he was frontman for Bungle before being a frontman for FNM. If anything, FNM would be the side-project, if not for the immense amount of time he spent with that band.

I can't stand the whole RHCP/Patton fight. Red Hot Chili Peppers evidently felt that Patton was ripping off their style and even their album-names for quite some time. They mostly are just jealous because FNM's song "Epic" is better remembered as the entrance of "nu-metal" (metal with hard-rap-style singing cadence) rather than one of the songs off their "Blood Sugar Sex Magic". Look, "The Real Thing" is a classic FNM album. They not only reprised that quality, they outdid it on later albums. "Album of the Year" is one of the best albums in rock, ever. So is "Blood Sugar Sex Magic", however, that's not a classic RHCP album by any measure -- the Chili Peppers were never that good and never were that good ever again. Besides that album, the RHCP sucks. So can we really say the RHCP achieved anything with that album besides the album itself? I'd prefer to attribute new advantages in music to artists, not to albums. Though you have to give credit where it's due -- in a review page I gave Mr. Bungle's "California" six stars compared to the band itself earning only five.
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Entry #3648 | Time: 6-3-08 Tue 2047 |> public clearance <|
Subject:
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a fun game to play is over at newgrounds.com , it's called "shrubbery"

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/442601

you fly around replanting the gameworld's forests for higher score. the bosses die when you hit them with enough seeds. it's fun.
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Entry #3647 | Time: 6-1-08 Sun 1400 |> public clearance <|
Subject:
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I have a lot of great ideas right now for a lot of great essays, but I came up with something instead that I haven't done in quite some time: a search-results table. Granted, it's far more simplified than some of that various comparisons I've accomplished in the past, but I think it's interesting. No zero-result terms included.

TABLE ONE: GROUPS, NUMBERS
Search Term# Results
"[fitb] is a joke"...
[FOX]10,800
[Fox News]9,350
[CNN]5,390
[NBC]3,150
[CBS]1,640
[YouTube]488
[ABC]275
[PBS]8
[CSPAN]2
[AT&T]1,150
[VERIZON]651
[T-Mobile]583
[Wireless]504
[SPRINT]420
[Wifi]370
[NEXTEL]6
[The Wii]6,280
[The PSP]435
[The Xbox]12
[The GameCube]1
[The Iraq War]4,290
[The Dem. Party] 8,720
[The Rep. Party]912
[The Democratic Primary]2
[The Michigan Primary]1


TABLE TWO: NUMBERS ONLY
Search Term# Results
"[fitb] is a joke"...
[FOX]10,800
[Fox News]9,350
[The Dem. Party] 8,720
[The Wii]6,280
[CNN]5,390
[The Iraq War]4,290
[NBC]3,150
[CBS]1,640
[AT&T]1,150
[The Rep. Party]912
[VERIZON]651
[T-Mobile]583
[Wireless]504
[YouTube]488
[The PSP]435
[SPRINT]420
[Wifi]370
[ABC]275
[The Xbox]12
[PBS]8
[NEXTEL]6
[CSPAN / Dem. Primary] (The)2
[GameCube / MI Primary] (The)1

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Entry #3646 | Time: 5-29-08 Thu 1303 |> public clearance <|
Subject:
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Thursdays are usually tough days for me. I can't get quite what I want out of the day and have to make a lot of concessions.

In the morning, around 10am I try to be at the CADL, the city library. Patrons only get 3 hours of computer use on their library card number. I try to get in 2 hours Thu. mornings and then make it across downtown to "Church in the City" (St. Paul's Evangelical, on Walnut) by 12:30 for lunch.

Three years ago when I first started eating lunch there, it was alright. They serve seconds, thirds, whatever as long as there is enough to go around and everyone's had firsts. But over the years I've noticed that they always give me far less food than they give everyone else. I go away from the serving window with half as much food as everyone else. Then I watch people who go up for seconds get just as much as I they did for firsts. And I get, for seconds, just as much as I got for firsts.

Today I finally called them on it, after over two years of going "huh?". I said "how come... never mind" but the serving woman pressed me to go on. "How come I always get less than everybody else" I said. The woman thought I meant the extremely fat woman directly in front of me in line who just left with a huge pile of spaghetti. I had enough for four forkfulls each serving. "Oh, that was her firsts. You're getting seconds." I pointed at the food and said, "this is how big my firsts was". And she just sort of gasped and turned away.

There's another woman who works there, whenever I get to the front of the line, whether it's for my firsts or whatever, she stops me. She'll ask me if it's my second time coming up even if I just got there. Then if it isn't my firsts, she'll ask everybody in the room if they've had their firsts, yet. Even after several people tell her that everyone's had firsts, she'll ask again and again. She grips her head while she does this like she has an enormous headache. She usually does that as soon as I get to the front of the line. She also gives me tiny portions.

I noticed that they give fatter people bigger portions. Most Michiganders are that way, liberally self-destructive like that. Michigan liberals tend to be liberals because they have some kind of inferiority complex. They can't stand to be anywhere in the same environment as somebody they can see as their equal or superior. They try to surround themselves immediately with people they see as inferior, and then they work, probably unconciously, to force the rest of society into situations, positions, environments, and attributes that they can see as inferior. All the while they maintain their lofty position over all their underlings as some kind of demigod, some bringer of lofty virtue. It's pathetic.

Michigan conservatives are the same. But they have no course of recompense as the liberals do. The MI-cons are just plain assholes.

For the most part, they're both alike in that everyone in Michigan with few exceptions has some sort of mental dysfunction. I'd say everyone in America but that just hasn't been my experience. Granted, though, that most people in America who don't show dysfunction aren't exactly gifted or developed, no matter what their age, upbringing, or experience.

Anyways the fat get fatter as a matter of tradition, pride, and respect.

You can see my ribs, these days. Maybe I should pull up my shirt while I'm being served these little forkfulls of food as "meals" and say "do I look like I need this little bit?"

You know three years ago I was a 44 waist going on a 46. A lot of people find that hard to believe, even people who were always hanging around with me back then. I still have stretch marks on my arms, legs, and waist. I'm surprised I don't have them on my neck and chin; I had a slight waddle and an actual double chin. I had two whole rolls of fat on my belly. My thighs were twice as big as my head.

A couple of weeks ago I walked up to DeWitt Township and back twice, that's about 12 miles. I had gone up there to get some films to return to the library and one of the boxes had the wrong movie in it. I had to go back and get it because I was leaving town for the weekend and didn't want anything overdue. Then I set out that night for Rose Lake, which is about 12 miles off. I came back the next day. That's fifty miles of walking in two days, no blisters, no aches or pains. I've been getting used to walking longer distances these homeless years. Like for instance, not using the bus. Wherever the city bus goes, I can get there for free in just twice the amount of time.

I was talking with some people this morning about how much weight I've lost in the last three years. I was at a 44 waist and had just bought two pairs of jeans in 46 waist size, because I knew it was approaching. For five years while I ballooned up, my waist size would hover between two sizes, up and down, tending towards the up, and I would switch from say 36's to 34's to 36's again, back to 34's, then 36's, then throw out the 34's and buy some 38's. Then into the 38's, then 36's again, back to 38's, and so on until the 36's were thrown out and I had new pairs of 40's. I had just thrown out my 42's and was looking at my new pair of 46's when I went homeless. This morning over coffee I mentioned how I was back down to a 32 waist after 14 years. I hadn't had a 32 waist since I was 16. I was 34 waist for awhile, a few years, and then I started getting fat.

I mentioned how I hadn't been able to get back below that 34 for so long, though I had wanted to. I feel healthier when I'm my proper weight (I'm naturally skinny). Then six months ago I had an idea, that I should eat more refined sugar. This came on the heels of my idea to eat more refined salt, which actually helped my heart rate and blood pressure and so on. I just chalk it up to how much pure salt I ate while I was developing. I put lots of salt on everything. I'm sure my body compensated for it somehow. The same with refined sugar.

Now, some might get confused and say this has something to do with diabetes, what I'm talking about. No, my insulin levels are normal. I don't have problems processing sugars. I do, however, have a very high metabolism -- normally. For some reason it seems to have been gone since I was about 17 or 18. I know for sure what happened was that I said "I'm cutting down on sugar", in response to fitting into 34 waist size pants. And then I got even more serious with that just before I started getting even fatter. So six months ago, still doing the 34-or-is-it-a-35 thing for about a year solid (with a stint of 36 again over the winter of 2006) I figured, upping my salt to my 9-year-old levels helped my circulation and heart. How about I up my sugar to the same levels as when I was 9, too, and see what happens? And it turned my metabolism back up, because I'm also naturally hyperactive. So I went back to burning fat. But now I need to eat like I did when I was about 13/14, which is a hell of a lot of food. And here I am wasting away and people I talk to about my weight loss think it's cancer or AIDS or something. That's depressing, but that's Michiganders for you: they're fucking stupid.

Anyways, the little tidbits of food I get served aren't isolated to just that church. That's the kind of service I get from everywhere. It's like something that follows me around whispering into the ears of all of these spiritual hotshot service people, "try not to feed him if you can help it. Stall. Do whatever you can. I'll be in my office."

I sometimes entertain the thought that they're the devil, or inhabited by devils. That woman certainly didn't see my point of view, in fact she just turned around and ignored me, acting like it's wrong for me to want the same treatment that others get. If you follow my line of reasoning, all the things I have to put up with from people for seemingly no reason, and how they don't even seem to be able to explain why they do that to me, and furthermore hate any inspection of this gross and widespread mild injustice, it sort of seems likely that for that matter, all of Michigan is inhabited by devils. If I was a serious exorcist, I'd just come up with some way of killing millions of people and just plop it right down here, because that would surely have to score me megapoints in heaven. You get points for destroying the demons, right?

Anyways. I don't deserve less than everybody, but that's what I get. And, it's not just food. The food is just the epitome, or the symbol or the ongoing struggle of my life. Nobody else goes through this. I've met lots and lots of people, especially lots of people with sob stories and struggle stories and what have you. The ongoing trend is that other people tend to overplay their problems and get infuriated with me when I lay my actual real life problems on them without any exaggeration. They start off pitying but then they get incredulous, then they try being helpful since they can't stand somebody who's their equal or superior in suffering (that inferiority complex, again), and they really can't do anything about it but alleviated my suffering directly (all my life all this advice and mentoring and such has always been to pass the buck to other people), and then they get angry at me because they see it as if I'm trying to deny help, and then they get accusational, saying that I'm in the situations I'm in because I put myself there on purpose. I point out that all of these things I suffer through, they're really beyond my control, and the person gets schizophrenic on me, saying that some kind of invisible force or influence is at work and I'm the one who's exercising it. "It's your personality. You put people off." That didn't stop them from having this long conversation, but I get that one alot at this point. Or this one: "you just don't want to be helped, you want to be pitied". That's called regression, isn't it, when they want to go back to the stage they were at (pity) out of comfort, because they aren't being very successful at eliminating the trigger of their inferiority complex? Or it's a spiritual thing. Or they just don't have an answer but it has to be my fault. I usually point out that they have joined the list of wrongs. They don't care.

That's really everybody -- I have not yet in my life met somebody who does not fit that profile. It makes me wonder, sometimes, entertaining these weird christo-socialist novelties, if the whole planet isn't just inhabited by devils. I mean, not the people themselves, but like their bodies; if they aren't all infested with demons. I forget what that's called. But it's a funny idea; if that were the case, none of them would deserve to live.

Anyways, I digress. I don't deserve less than everybody. I deserve more. I'm better than everybody else; I'm smarter, I'm funnier, I'm craftier, I'm more useful. I might not have had the same experiences, but I can get through them better. I wake up more ready than anybody else to be happy and content, and the day is slowly ruined and eroded by literally everyone else. I am a godsend to the world -- I really am. I don't have all the answers, but that's because I'm usually stuck in trapping myself in other peoples' ways of looking at the questions. Those people don't deserve that -- they should be doing their own work, on their own. People really don't even deserve to have me around.

I always feel better than anything else can make me feel when I acknowledge: I am better than everyone else I've ever met, and it's highly improbably that that will ever change, no matter how many more people I meet -- that better person just isn't out there; It's true, I am better; I'm doing what I should be doing, just as I always have done; I'm better because of that, too -- how many other people can say that; I can beat the breaks off that person without even letting them blink -- I just might if they piss me off; These people surrounding me are weak, insipid, vapid, parasitic, and every other affont to the human species in general, and they don't even deserve to live; so what will I be giving people of my being; nothing, I won't give them any, not even enough to acknowledge that I have it, even if their life required that they did; that's also what I'm supposed to be doing; and I'm all that much better because of that, as well; of course they'll all only invest their resources -- their food, their money, their equal justice, their openness -- in one another, that's because they're fat, they're rich, they're evil, and they're stupid and they're dying; of course they can't invest anything in me, I'm a threat, I'm pure 100% threat to them and that's the one thing that always acknowledge no matter how far off they get in their psychotic meanderings, doubletalk, and lies; all other people suck, that's sad, but at least I don't -- that's enough to make happy.

Anyways, as I said, I digress. Then after lunch I make it to the computer lab around 1pm and get online in what's sometimes a nice, quiet environment, but usually the people in the building have some kind of bug up their ass, or in their head, or their head up their ass (with or without bugs in it), or they're, I dunno, infested with demons or something. In any case every syllable they utter sounds absolutely foolish and specially tailored to infuriate the sensible. I thought libraries were supposed to be quiet places; those people should be punished somehow, especially since they work here and there's nothing the rest of us can do to get them to shut their decrepit little mouths and brains for even one moment.

***

things that just need to be said:

Complaining about high gas prices:
Enough! You drive an inefficient gas guzzling car. You refuse to take public transit because of all the brown people on it. You couldn't organize a carpool to save your life. "Someone has to do something about these evil oil companies who are reaping profits off the backs of hard working Americans!" Shut up and get on the bus. Our selfish car culture is slowly coming to an end.

Web 2.0:
Nooooo! Now that every single article on the Internet has a feedback page under it where retarded comments that defy all logic are posted I feel like I'm in some kind of futuristic wonderland. When Web 3.0 arrives special USB attachments will be released that shoot fecal matter straight into your mouth every time you read "beefyweiner's" thoughts on the economic stimulus plan.

other contents at somethingawful......

DECORATING HELL

Exclusive Collectible Romantic Figurine Captures the Power and Passion of Lee Bogle Art! Makes a Romantic Gift!


I am not ashamed to admit that, in a situation such as the one depicted in this piece, I would suffer from performance anxiety. I mean the girl is hot and all, sure, but couldn't we go somewhere more private?

Exclusive Mythical Dragon Tabletop Tree is an Illuminated First! Stunning 3D Mountain Scenes Bring the Magical Quest to Life!


This is like one of those KFC Famous Bowls where they pile all their menu items in a bowl, except with dragons and other fantasy clichés. ... Just what is this "Magical Quest" they speak of? Climbing up a spire, fighting one dragon after another? ... Shit, this is the Realm of the Dragons, son. Dragons are everywhere.
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Entry #3645 | Time: 5-24-08 Sat 0401 |> public clearance <|
Subject: german techno video
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what was that german techno video with the girls who come to life when the guys in the band put on the vr glasses? that video rocked and now it's gone from youtube. it fucking rocked! and i can't find it! even remembering the english parts of the lyrics and searching for them turned up nothing! WHO WAS MY LIVEJOURNAL FRIEND WHO HAD THAT VIDEO UP? I WANT THAT VIDEO UP! I NEED THAT VIDEO UP. PLEASE HELP ME THAT VIDEO UP?
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Entry #3644 | Time: 5-22-08 Thu 2002 |> public clearance <|
Subject: interesting writer/director
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this director's videos aren't available through any of the MelCat requests. Meaning they aren't in any libraries in Michigan. I do have a birthday coming up, maybe somebody will send me a copy of one of "The Holy Mountain" on DVD so I can give it to my friends in DeWitt?
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Entry #3643 | Time: 5-14-08 Wed 2010 |> public clearance <|
Subject: thank you, once again, daer j0ej0e
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Welcome to the website of
the Open Source Order of the Golden Dawn

We are a community of magickal practitioners, mostly of Pagan background, who have gathered to work the Golden Dawn System.

Since most of the original order's material is published, and the world is very different from what it was at the start of the 20th century, we don't operate in secrecy or keep secrets save what is needed for confidentiality or security.

We invite you to:

Read the Manifesto of the Open Source Order of the Golden Dawn, which outlines our goals and philosophy.

Check out the Frequently Asked Questions to learn more about us.

Find out about our Operational Principles.

Learn about our spiritual development process in On the General Guidance and Purification of the Soul, v2.0.

Postulants to the Open Source Order of the Golden Dawn have a right to ask where we stand On Lineage.

Study our Rituals. As we redact them into suitable forms we'll be posting them on this site. We invite you to put them to your own use.

Visit our on-line Library, where you will find the results of our collection process and our own research and practice. If you have writings that may be suitable to post here, let us know. Through open discussion the community of practice grows.

Work with us or at least let us know you are out there. We welcome new members into the OSOGD, if you live near one of our Lodges. Please check the Temples page or contact our Cancellarius for information on current Lodge locations. Also, we invite working groups to affiliate with our Order and thus strengthen the magickal current.

In the sense of making it more prevalent, our primary goal is to normalize Adeptship. Would you like to help?
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Entry #3642 | Time: 5-13-08 Tue 1845 |> public clearance <|
Subject: the myth of hobo wisdom
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well for awhile i had been sleeping on and off in a heavy duty cardboard shack that paul and i put up in the "back 40" behind the v.o.a. shelter. last time i stayed there was sunday morning, from 6am to 130pm. i remember because i was glad to have woken up at pretty much just the right time to get to the library and use the computers, as they open 1pm on sundays. and then i ran into friends afterwards and it was mother's day, and we went out for pizza buffet. then i stayed at their place. monday i went to abc warehouse to buy a new 4gb thumbdrive (only $20!) and rubber earbuds (high endurance, good quality sound, only $4!). abc warehouse: it's the closest thing to wholesale and they will not be undersold. on the way back to my friends' place monday at 730pm the bus passed by the voa and i saw about six police cars out front, four or five officers across the street, two officers up by the mess hall patio, and after rounding the corner, one officer standing guard in the back 40. then i stayed at my friends' place again. on the news this morning (tue) there was mention of a murder at the v.o.a., and i went back to the v. at about 430/5pm today and was told that anybody who stayed back there in the last 30 days has been asked to file a statement with the investigators. well, i count since that shack's been there for the last two weeks and i've used it about half that time. i'm glad i wasn't back there when that happened. one guy they questioned was seen wearing nothing but his socks and a blanket because they took his shoes or something. the murder victim went by the name of "crazy", an old dude with a long beard and biker jacket and tattooes.

in unrelated news paul's been missing for nine days. in still unrelated news my friend jamie's friends' pad got shot up with an automatic assault rifle monday last week. i think it was monday? same night as two other drive-bys, one in a parking lot.
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Entry #3641 | Time: 5-13-08 Tue 0119 |> public clearance <|
Subject: If I Owned a Restaurant & Was The Chef This Would Be The Menu
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Soup
Royal Dutch Split Pea (Fresh to 2 Days Old depending on demand)
Raspberry Peanut Butter Chilis y Frijoles Con Carne (HOT)
Tomato Gazpacho (Blended or Diced)
Borscht
Salsa Verde (Calm or HOT)

Salad
Molasses & Mustard Egg & Macaroni Salad (Spicy: Calm, Mild, Medium or HOT)
Lettuce, Tomatoes, Mushrooms, Onions, Oil & Vinegar, Pressed Garlic (w/ Meat/Seafood?)

Earl of Sandwich Style Dishes
Gabriel's Black & Green Olive & Garlic Paste w/ Mayonnaise between 12-Grain Toast
Garlic Bagel w/ Hummus, Tomato, Mustard (Toasted?)
Elvis Presley's Grilled Peanut Butter & Banana on White
Eggy in a Basket (12-Grain)

Veggies
Baby Onions, Brussels Sprouts, Baby Corn, and Baby Peas (Room Temperature)
Pickled Artichoke Hearts & Cooled Boiled Spinach w/ Semi-Dry Feta Cheese Crumbs

Pasta (bleached)
Spaghetti Gabriel's Way (Shh! Yeah, right, too original & delicious to let anyone ever try it)
Ginger & Cheyenne (or Curry and Hot Sauce) Mac & Cheese

Pizza
2-topping Pizza (pick some things from the menu) with Imported Romanian Sweet Garlic-Ketchup

Meat Dishes
Gabriel's Black & Green Olive & Garlic Paste in a Burger
Steaks w/ Skinned Tomatoes
Beer Basted Brats (Steel Reserve)

Seafood
Stuffed Clams
Steamed Mussels
Boiled Scallops
New England Clam Chowder
Polynesian "Style" Tuna Melts (on English Muffins)
Tuna Salad on Lettuce

Also, This is a Very Cute Kitten Named Pinky Who Now Lives w/ My Friends


she is about half the size of cats her age. she will probably stay very small.
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